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Getting back into the swing of this whole LJ thing.

<3

My friend who is a licensed cosmetologist, totally screwed up my hair today.
She's done my hair 50 times probably, so i should be grateful this has only happened once
I feel ugly, really.
I cried, after years of looking normal, i'm back to black.
I hate it, I hate who I was when I had black hair.
Fuck.
Sorry for the rant friends, but I can't post this anywhere else.

7 months later and it's still hard for me to believe that you're gone.
As crazy as it sounds to most people, I really think you're my angel.

The things I loved most about you.

-the simple fact that you cared
-your ridiculous laugh
-your generosity
-the ability that you had to love everyone
-the patience you had to to tolerate me and my attitude
-your work ethic
-your loyalty.

Rest in Peace, Old friend.
I love you.

I was really a happy kid from what I've been told.
This picture is one of my favorites my dad took of me as a baby.

the five things.

+ buying all of my books for less than 300 dollars for the semester!
+ speaking at the church tonight.
+ getting hugs from a lot of the people at church that hadn't seen me in a month.
+ SINGING again.
+ remembering the good times I had with Michelle.


I need to learn to not rush things, I don't want to ruin what I have going for me.
"easy emily, easy"
I think that over and over again.

peace be with you all,
emilyjoy

I can think of you and smile now.
I miss you old friend.
I really think you're my angel these days.

I love you!!

--emilyjoy


Michelle Joy Kane
1987-2007

yesterday was my belt test.
i broke one board.
i messed up two kicks (sidekicks)
and i spent three minutes talking about how much tae kwon do has changed my life, i could talk about that for 3 hours though.
i am a martial artist.
i am a warrior.
i am proud of myself.
i am freaking emilyjoy.
my hearts been broken but i think i have my strength back and  I'm ready to go.



i leave you with that. an ax kick on its way down and a smile.
emily"there's always hope"joy